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DEATH IN THE HOUSE OF LIFE
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William Faulkner said,
"The only thing worth writing about is
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But we're talking literature here.
When was the last time you put down a new
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"This is literature."
in your writing lately?
Have you contented yourself with
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THE NIGHT OF THE UNIVERSE
“All human thought, all science, all philosophy is but the holding of a
candle to the night of the universe.”
- Darael
I have always thought that Elohim in His Dark Mercy forever masks the
mind to full discernment and perception lest the revelations appall us to madness.
As when on mountain-heights, a glance behind betrays with knowledge, and
the climber slips down gulfs of fear to some enormous fall.
‘You think nonsense!’
‘That you express yourself so well in language, a concept foreign to you but
moments before is ….’
‘Simplicity itself. I was crafted to adapt, to observe, to sail along new
planes of existence of which I was formerly ignorant. Even now, I am plumbing
the recesses of your primitive mind for what it has encountered.’
‘Welcome to my world.’
‘There is little cause for gratitude in which I see.’
‘I’m not much, but I’m all I have, Sentient.’
‘Why do you insist on calling me that?’
‘It is the name you asked to be called. Now, I begin to see why.’
A sad sigh filled my mind.
‘In essence, I named myself by insisting to be called by the appellation I
first heard applied to myself. How very quaint.’
‘In a sense, the future has impinged upon the past.’
‘Bah! There is no Past, no Future, no Present. All is one.’
‘Time is a cube?’
‘Grasping to understand Reality, are you? Time has no more substance than
a shad0w … for that it what it is: merely the shadow cast by existence. You can
no more grasp Time than you can touch your own shadow.’
‘Well, that is as clear as an eclipse.’
‘I have repented of killing your so-called Spartan 3oo.’
‘Good … because you picked them in the future that you say does not
exist.’
‘Why would I do that?’
‘I suspect you decided they would be useful in your designs.’
‘What designs?’
‘As with most things about you, I am unclear about them.’
‘Why have I kept you alive for so long? You are most maddening.’
“Right back at you.’
‘I suppose I must release you. The one you call Helen Mayfair is about to
harm Darael to escape his restraint.’
‘I hardly think she could.’
‘His reluctance to harm her would allow her to harm him.’
Like the turning on of a light, I was suddenly on my feet, standing beside
a bemused Sister Ameal.
Helen Mayfair, rushed towards me her flaming arms outstretched to embrace
me.
Darael, snorting in disgust, yanked her back by her trailing fiery hair.
“Would you cremate the one you cannot have?”
“Oh, my!”
And in middle of her exclamation, she changed from fiery angel to her smaller
human-seeming form. Darael smiled much too pleased with himself. I went cold
inside.
He had had another reason for Helen to appear human.
The Voice that belonged to another Age echoed above me. I turned. The golden-toned
voice more hollow than I remembered laughed.
I turned. A thirty-foot tall black-winged Mr. Morton towered above us. The
prehistoric sun struck fire from his strange armor.
Slanted eyes without one flicker of recognition studied me, then turned
to Darael who had grown equally as tall.
“Cousin, last, I recall, we fought on opposite sides. And here, you bring
me these odd bipeds with which to play.”
SHOULD AULD ACQUAINTANCE BE FORGOT
“Great perils have this beauty, that they bring to light the fraternity
of strangers.”
– Victor Hugo
Even a mirror will not show you yourself … if you do not wish to see.
But pain … ah, yes pain. Pain will show you the self you should have been
smarter than to have been.
I am at a loss to describe the agony that Sister Ameal’s wiry fingers
about my temples brought me.
To describe is not important.
A thing happens once that has never happened before. Seeing it, a man
looks upon reality.
He cannot tell others what he has seen. Others wish to know, however, so
they question him saying, 'What is it like, this thing you have seen?'
So he tries to tell them. Perhaps he has seen the very first fire in the
world.
He tells them,
'It is red, like a poppy, but through it dance other colors. It has no form, like water, flowing everywhere. It is warm, like the sun of summer, only warmer.
It exists for a time upon a piece of wood, and then the wood is gone,
as though it were eaten, leaving behind that which is black and can be sifted
like sand. When the wood is gone, it too is gone.'
Therefore, the hearers must think reality is like a poppy, like water,
like the sun, like that which eats and excretes.
They think it is like to anything that they are told it is like by the
man who has known it. But they have not looked upon fire. They cannot
really know it. They can only know of it.
They must look upon the fire, smell of it, warm their hands by it, stare
into its heart, or remain forever ignorant.
Therefore, 'fire' does not
matter, 'earth' and 'air' and 'water' do not matter. 'I'
do not matter. No word matters.
But man forgets reality and remembers words.
The more words he remembers, the cleverer do his fellows esteem him.
Ghost-winds of thoughts wailed through my mind:
‘Language. Words! Your … words coalesce my thoughts into comprehension. Never
have I seen your species before. Who are you?’
‘Sentient! It is me. Don’t you remember?’
‘I do not know this “Me” of whom you speak.’
And then, it hit me.
“Sister Ameal” was like a car radio abruptly taken out of the range of
the radio station to which it had been tuned.
All had been become silent within the construct of Sentient’s physical
avatar operating in the time of World War II.
Sister Ameal had not been dead … merely unplugged from her source.
And the current Sentient, orbiting this prehistoric world, had never before
seen Man or heard any of his languages.
‘I have been so alone within myself for as long as I can remember … so
alone … but content in this unawareness of my aloneness … until now.’
I felt a scalding rage sear my mind as if a boiling pan of water had been splashed upon it.
‘But never again will I feel such contentment. Never!
Because of you and
your uninvited intrusion into my thoughts! You have cursed me! Cursed me! For
this, I should end you and the rest of your herd!”
"It is not only the most difficult thing to know oneself, but the
most inconvenient one, too."
–
George Bernard Shaw
- Deborah
"There is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved: It is God's tap on your shoulder."
- Rabbi Lt. Amos Stein
Amos snorted, “Seraph, threaten away. Rick is a friend. And I have long
known each moment is a thief, tiptoeing away with more than it brings. And here
in the Stone Age, it may well steamroll away with the lives of everyone here.”
The lanky Seraph Provocateur, Darael, sat down light as a helium balloon beside me.
“Except for myself and the fledgling. We will survive quite well … and of course,
Deborah with her ‘People’ who have done so for weeks. Elohim would not have
planted them here earlier if He thought otherwise. Why did you ever give her
that name?”
The unusual creature, native to the shadows of New Orleans, sat down with a lithe grace just beyond the body of Sister Ameal.
I raised an eyebrow in surprise. Gone was the gown in which I last saw her. A
combat uniform similar to the ones I and the Spartan 3oo wore now replaced it.
The fur collar of her leather bomber jacket seemed to be bristling to
match the fur at the top of her sloped head.
Her raspy voice snorted, “Because, unlike you, Seraph, he sees me and mine
being of worth.”
Darael sighed, “I cannot believe I am saying this, but I miss my brother,
Uriel. He would make sense of this, finding a path out of this madness.”
He shook his head, now adorned with an antique Spartan helmet that
matched Helen’s’ and that of nurse, Rachel Reynolds.
“I recall the springtime of the world as though it were
yesterday—those days when we rode together to battle, and those nights when we
shook the stars loose from the fresh-painted skies!”
“Fun times?” asked Sergeant-Major Theo Savalas walking up to us.
“Not hardly. But it was good to have a brother I trusted at my side.”
Helen’s fiery eyebrow raised. “You do not trust me?”
“Fledgling, I trust you to be inexperienced … and that could be the death
of all of us.”
I murmured, “You work with what you have, Darael, and make the best of
it.”
“You are correct, Richard Blaine, for all men have within them both that
which is dark and that which is light.
His lips curled,
“A man is a thing of many divisions, not a pure, clear flame such as you once were, Blaine. His intellect often wars with his emotions, his will with his desires . . .
his ideals are at odds with his
environment, and if he follows them, he knows keenly the loss of that
which was old, but if he does not follow them, he feels the pain of having
forsaken a new and noble dream.”
He sighed,
“Whatever he does represents both a gain and a loss, an arrival, and a departure. Always, he mourns that which is gone and fears some part of that which is new. Reason opposes tradition.
Emotions oppose the restrictions his fellow men lay upon him. Always, from the friction of these
things, there arises the thing we seraphs call the curse of man … regret.”
MI6 agent, James Cloverfield sat on the other side of the Seraph. “I am
very afraid, for I understood most of that.”
The other fifteen Spartans clustered not too far behind him. Deborah’s
ten Grunches were only feet away from them.
It was unwise to cluster so close together in strange, dangerous territory.
But I could not blame them.
We are herd animals and seek the comfort of bodies close to us when death waits
in the shadows.
I gathered myself to rise to my feet. Death and Light were everywhere,
always, and they begin, end, strive, attend, into and upon Elohim’s Dream that
is the world, burning words within Existence, perhaps to create a thing of
beauty.
Then, Sister Ameal’s wiry fingers shot out and wrapped about my temples,
knocking my Spartan helmet to the rutted ground.
"If trouble always comes when you least expect it, perhaps the thing to do is always expect it."
- Major Richard Blaine