“All human thought, all science, all philosophy is but the holding of a
candle to the night of the universe.”
- Darael
I have always thought that Elohim in His Dark Mercy forever masks the
mind to full discernment and perception lest the revelations appall us to madness.
As when on mountain-heights, a glance behind betrays with knowledge, and
the climber slips down gulfs of fear to some enormous fall.
‘You think nonsense!’
‘That you express yourself so well in language, a concept foreign to you but
moments before is ….’
‘Simplicity itself. I was crafted to adapt, to observe, to sail along new
planes of existence of which I was formerly ignorant. Even now, I am plumbing
the recesses of your primitive mind for what it has encountered.’
‘Welcome to my world.’
‘There is little cause for gratitude in which I see.’
‘I’m not much, but I’m all I have, Sentient.’
‘Why do you insist on calling me that?’
‘It is the name you asked to be called. Now, I begin to see why.’
A sad sigh filled my mind.
‘In essence, I named myself by insisting to be called by the appellation I
first heard applied to myself. How very quaint.’
‘In a sense, the future has impinged upon the past.’
‘Bah! There is no Past, no Future, no Present. All is one.’
‘Time is a cube?’
‘Grasping to understand Reality, are you? Time has no more substance than
a shad0w … for that it what it is: merely the shadow cast by existence. You can
no more grasp Time than you can touch your own shadow.’
‘Well, that is as clear as an eclipse.’
‘I have repented of killing your so-called Spartan 3oo.’
‘Good … because you picked them in the future that you say does not
exist.’
‘Why would I do that?’
‘I suspect you decided they would be useful in your designs.’
‘What designs?’
‘As with most things about you, I am unclear about them.’
‘Why have I kept you alive for so long? You are most maddening.’
“Right back at you.’
‘I suppose I must release you. The one you call Helen Mayfair is about to
harm Darael to escape his restraint.’
‘I hardly think she could.’
‘His reluctance to harm her would allow her to harm him.’
Like the turning on of a light, I was suddenly on my feet, standing beside
a bemused Sister Ameal.
Helen Mayfair, rushed towards me her flaming arms outstretched to embrace
me.
Darael, snorting in disgust, yanked her back by her trailing fiery hair.
“Would you cremate the one you cannot have?”
“Oh, my!”
And in middle of her exclamation, she changed from fiery angel to her smaller
human-seeming form. Darael smiled much too pleased with himself. I went cold
inside.
He had had another reason for Helen to appear human.
The Voice that belonged to another Age echoed above me. I turned. The golden-toned
voice more hollow than I remembered laughed.
I turned. A thirty-foot tall black-winged Mr. Morton towered above us. The
prehistoric sun struck fire from his strange armor.
Slanted eyes without one flicker of recognition studied me, then turned
to Darael who had grown equally as tall.
“Cousin, last, I recall, we fought on opposite sides. And here, you bring
me these odd bipeds with which to play.”
“Great perils have this beauty, that they bring to light the fraternity
of strangers.”
– Victor Hugo
Even a mirror will not show you yourself … if you do not wish to see.
But pain … ah, yes pain. Pain will show you the self you should have been
smarter than to have been.
I am at a loss to describe the agony that Sister Ameal’s wiry fingers
about my temples brought me.
To describe is not important.
A thing happens once that has never happened before. Seeing it, a man
looks upon reality.
He cannot tell others what he has seen. Others wish to know, however, so
they question him saying, 'What is it like, this thing you have seen?'
So he tries to tell them. Perhaps he has seen the very first fire in the
world.
He tells them,
'It is red, like a poppy, but through it dance other colors. It has no
form, like water, flowing everywhere. It is warm, like the sun of summer, only
warmer.
It exists for a time upon a piece of wood, and then the wood is gone,
as though it were eaten, leaving behind that which is black and can be sifted
like sand. When the wood is gone, it too is gone.'
Therefore, the hearers must think reality is like a poppy, like water,
like the sun, like that which eats and excretes.
They think it is like to anything that they are told it is like by the
man who has known it. But they have not looked upon fire. They cannot
really know it. They can only know of it.
They must look upon the fire, smell of it, warm their hands by it, stare
into its heart, or remain forever ignorant.
Therefore, 'fire' does not
matter, 'earth' and 'air' and 'water' do not matter. 'I'
do not matter. No word matters.
But man forgets reality and remembers words.
The more words he remembers, the cleverer do his fellows esteem him.
Ghost-winds of thoughts wailed through my mind:
‘Language. Words! Your … words coalesce my thoughts into comprehension. Never
have I seen your species before. Who are you?’
‘Sentient! It is me. Don’t you remember?’
‘I do not know this “Me” of whom you speak.’
And then, it hit me.
“Sister Ameal” was like a car radio abruptly taken out of the range of
the radio station to which it had been tuned.
All had been become silent within the construct of Sentient’s physical
avatar operating in the time of World War II.
Sister Ameal had not been dead … merely unplugged from her source.
And the current Sentient, orbiting this prehistoric world, had never before
seen Man or heard any of his languages.
‘I have been so alone within myself for as long as I can remember … so
alone … but content in this unawareness of my aloneness … until now.’
I felt a scalding rage sear my mind as if a boiling pan of water had been splashed upon it.
‘But never again will I feel such contentment. Never!
Because of you and
your uninvited intrusion into my thoughts! You have cursed me! Cursed me! For
this, I should end you and the rest of your herd!”
"It is not only the most difficult thing to know oneself, but the
most inconvenient one, too."
"The Creator has shaped the world in such a way that there will always be troubles so that there will always be a time for heroes, a time for Man to be better than what he believes he can be."
- Deborah
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE TROUBLES
"There is no surprise more magical
than the surprise of being loved: It is God's tap on your shoulder."
- Rabbi Lt. Amos Stein
Amos snorted, “Seraph, threaten away. Rick is a friend. And I have long
known each moment is a thief, tiptoeing away with more than it brings. And here
in the Stone Age, it may well steamroll away with the lives of everyone here.”
The lanky Seraph Provocateur, Darael, sat down light as a helium balloon
beside me.
“Except for myself and the fledgling. We will survive quite well … and of course,
Deborah with her ‘People’ who have done so for weeks. Elohim would not have
planted them here earlier if He thought otherwise. Why did you ever give her
that name?”
The unusual creature, native to the shadows of New Orleans, sat down with
a lithe gracejust beyond the body of Sister Ameal.
I raised an eyebrow in surprise. Gone was the gown in which I last saw her. A
combat uniform similar to the ones I and the Spartan 3oo wore now replaced it.
The fur collar of her leather bomber jacket seemed to be bristling to
match the fur at the top of her sloped head.
Her raspy voice snorted, “Because, unlike you, Seraph, he sees me and mine
being of worth.”
Darael sighed, “I cannot believe I am saying this, but I miss my brother,
Uriel. He would make sense of this, finding a path out of this madness.”
He shook his head, now adorned with an antique Spartan helmet that
matched Helen’s’ and that of nurse, Rachel Reynolds.
“I recall the springtime of the world as though it were
yesterday—those days when we rode together to battle, and those nights when we
shook the stars loose from the fresh-painted skies!”
“Fun times?” asked Sergeant-Major Theo Savalas walking up to us.
“Not hardly. But it was good to have a brother I trusted at my side.”
Helen’s fiery eyebrow raised. “You do not trust me?”
“Fledgling, I trust you to be inexperienced … and that could be the death
of all of us.”
I murmured, “You work with what you have, Darael, and make the best of
it.”
“You are correct, Richard Blaine, for all men have within them both that
which is dark and that which is light.
His lips curled,
“A man is a thing of many divisions, not a pure, clear
flame such as you once were, Blaine. His intellect often wars with his
emotions, his will with his desires . . .
his ideals are at odds with his
environment, and if he follows them, he knows keenly the loss of that
which was old, but if he does not follow them, he feels the pain of having
forsaken a new and noble dream.”
He sighed,
“Whatever he does represents both a gain and a loss, an
arrival, and a departure. Always, he mourns that which is gone and fears some
part of that which is new. Reason opposes tradition.
Emotions oppose the restrictions his fellow men lay upon him. Always, from the friction of these
things, there arises the thing we seraphs call the curse of man … regret.”
MI6 agent, James Cloverfield sat on the other side of the Seraph. “I am
very afraid, for I understood most of that.”
The other fifteen Spartans clustered not too far behind him. Deborah’s
ten Grunches were only feet away from them.
It was unwise to cluster so close together in strange, dangerous
territory.
But I could not blame them.
We are herd animals and seek the comfort of bodies close to us when death waits
in the shadows.
I gathered myself to rise to my feet. Death and Light were everywhere,
always, and they begin, end, strive, attend, into and upon Elohim’s Dream that
is the world, burning words within Existence, perhaps to create a thing of
beauty.
Then, Sister Ameal’s wiry fingers shot out and wrapped about my temples,
knocking my Spartan helmet to the rutted ground.
"If trouble always comes when you least expect it, perhaps the thing to do is always expect it."
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“Time is free, yet priceless. You cannot own
it, but you can use it. You cannot keep it, but you can spend it. The trouble
with Man is that he thinks he has time when It has him.”
– Sentient
As far back as I could remember my life had been narrated by a voice
other than my own.
It had nearly driven me crazy until I discovered the voice came from an
orbiting sentient dimensional craft.
Now, all was silent inside my head except for my own bewildered thoughts.
I had always wanted to be alone in my head, I had it now, and I was devastated
thinking I had lost my oldest friend.
Our desires are always fickle. Foolish is the man who trusts in them.
I sat by the inert body of Sister Ameal. I watched strange insects scurry
away from it as if she were aflame.
And maybe to their senses, she was. As far as I could tell my friends and
I were in the Cretaceous time period, the last portion of the Age of the
Dinosaurs. I knew less than nothing about the insect life here.
I wagered it would be a safe bet to think any life form here would want
us for lunch, insect or otherwise. That they feared Sister Ameal’s body was
unsettling.
Of course, everything about her was unnerving … including the fact that she
was the living, now dead, avatar of Sentient.
Sentient? She was the living intra-dimensional craft, ensnared in Earth’s
initial gravitational field, who waited millennia to find a human mind with whom
she could communicate.
And as soon as she discovered me, I was drafted to be cannon fodder in
the madness spawned by Hitler’s insane ambitions.
Taking control of me to keep me safe, Sentient made me anything but
safe. Still, I was a Major … in two ways:
in rank and a major pain to any superior
officer, chief of whom was General Eisenhower … currently on psychiatric leave
… and yes, I, or rather Sentient, was to blame.
I absently toyed with Sister Ameal’s brilliantly white habit. Sentient,
through the nun or directly through mental words, had always been there for me.
Now, here in the Cretaceous Age, she was death silent. Why were we here?
Only Elohim knew.
He had cast us here from the cursed village of Oradour-sur-Glane
to keep me and my Spartan 300 safe from being crushed by the falling body of a dying
Old One.
As you might be suspecting, Omaha Beach was a picnic compared to
out-of-control Gestapo science garnering the attention of the Dark Ones.
It seemed I only learned the truth long after it could do me any good. To
paraphrase Oedipus, Hamlet, Lear, and so many others, "I wish I had
known this some time ago.”
For the thousandth time, I had acted impulsively. I doubt I would ever
act otherwise. I've always been impulsive.
My thinking is usually pretty good,
but I always seem to do it after I do my acting and talking — like now. By
which time I've generally destroyed all basis for further conversation.
Rabbi Lt. Amos Stein sat gingerly by my right side. “Rick, snap out of
it. The Spartans need ….”
A crackling sword of living flame sliced between us, and the eerie voice
of the fledgling seraph with the all too human name, Helen Mayfair, murmured,
“You will give Richard all the time he requires to gather his wits. This is not
a request, Rabbi.”
From the sound of her ghost-bell voice, I could tell she was in her
fighting form of fourteen feet.
Needless to say, when I fell in love with her
in the orphanage library, she was in her human-appearing body.
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